| The past 5 days, short 'n sweet (& sticky) style |
[24 May 2008|02:11pm] |
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Partying on the streets of the city with the GIL, re: football team victory.
Michiel visiting from Belgium.
Hooverphonic concert in Zürich.
Madonna ticket for Zürich, 30th Aug, ensured.
Hooverphonic concert in Milan, with the GIL.
To be continued...
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| 2 in 1 |
[05 May 2008|12:36am] |
Yesterday I had a most awesome GIL-day. We went out for a hour-and-a-half motorbike ride just for the sake of it - i.e. no shopping- or photo-related. Then we spent another hour talking of this matter about our friends... and it was one of those good talks you sometimes need to have to get things off your chest. Really, it's a sad that this whole thing has happened, but it's a good thing we're now both in this and I'm no longer the only one to know, it feels good to have someone to talk to.
Later at night I went out bowling with some other friends, then at some point I left and joined the GIL elsewhere. We stayed there until closure time (that is, 4 am) and it was great cause she sometimes glanced at me in that in-the-know way that I could die for, plus it was all the more remarkable because today she even had a football game to play so she usually leaves early the night before... instead she stayed until the very end. And it was just me and her, and later on a friend of us who was kinda drunk, so basically it was just me and her. Aha.
Today indeed there was her football game, which I went to see. Afterwards we went to drink and eat something together with a couple more friends, and later on she proposed to go to the movies to see Saw IV. Our other friends went to see a comedy of some sorts whereas I, she and the friend of the night before went to see Saw indeed. Almost at the very end the GIL felt sick because of a splitting headache (not for the movie) so she left before the end, but a few minutes later we reached her outside and thankfully she was fine again. Aww.
After that everybody went home, so here I am. Almost the most perfect weekend I've had in ages. If anything, plenty of GIL moments *sighs*
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| Coincidences |
[02 May 2008|01:02am] |
Oh GIL... what have I done to deserve all this?
Today I've had another awesome GIL day... talked to her on MSN about some rather important and deep matters concerning our friends, which obviously mirrored our own points of view and then some considerations on life.. and then we agreed to do another bike ride together, with photo outing on top of that! At last! I think it's the first time since she got her camera that we've gone on a photo outing together. If this isn't a step forward, I don't know what it is.
Then, when I was just about to get home, she texted me asking if I wanted to go out for dinner with her and two other friends, so back over there I got... we had an enjoyable dinner right up to the point where she started talking about her ex (but it's those friends' fault) and then it got a little sad and depressing, for her, but for me too. Thank goodness they changed subject when some other friends popped up by chance at the very same restaurant, after which we talked a bit more about the whole situation about our other friends (re: MSN convo) and left. We went again to the fun fair and I felt her rather close at times - I mean, mentally - which was again very nice. At some point I went to shoot with a BB rifle and got the bull's eye each time, at which she kinda marveled (wooh hoo, points for me!). When I had to choose the prize for my results I asked her to help me pick something so she pointed at an orange cat... spot on! I still don't know if she picked that one because she likes orange or because she knows I do, either way it fit perfectly. I managed to convince her to shoot too (she's good at it - I remembered from last year), and when it was time for her to pick the prize she, in turn, asked me to chose between two small stuffed animals, and then I played once more because we sooo had to get the other one so we would have the two matching animals. So sweet, aha.
Eventually the thing closed down so we moved to our usual bar... fast forward a little bit and somehow she got something on her mind and became silent and broody. She left after a while but... thank goodness she did! About half an hour later that fucking ex of hers went in, which would have killed her if she was still there.
I don't know... it seems like she likes to be tortured (I know I know, me too), and that DOB (female counterpart of SOB) likes to keep her hanging. I don't know if the DOB has got any by-ends at this point, but something just doesn't sound quite right, and I am so very afraid the GIL will fall again... The DOB has hardly been around since the day she dropped the GIL, some year and a half ago, and now all of a sudden she pops up again at the very place she knows she goes to three times in a row? I say fishy. Fish fish fishy.
Still, why the hell each time things start to be fine again between us, something - or someone - feels the need to wreack havoc? Gosh...
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| And more... (but then!) |
[27 Apr 2008|02:27am] |
Dammit if one day could go right from beginning to end...
Today I had another awesome (now, that's an understatement) GIL-day. About 13:15. She fires up a convo with me on MSN (had been ages since she did that in a propositive, not I-need-a-favour way) and asks what I'm up to today. I said I had gotten up not long before and still hadn't planned anything, what about her... bike ride? (This was half way between a question and a proposal). She said she wanted to go shopping... and from there, and after some sweeeeeet teasing we eventually decided to meet half an hour later at some place where I would have left my car and been picked up by her. So motorbike + shopping = awesome. We spent the afternoon shopping, talking, laughing, eating giant ice cream cups and riding around on her motorbike together, just me and her. At about 17 or something we parted ways only to meet some time later in the evening to go to the fun fair. In the mean time I went to see an equestrianism event at my old stable, and then, when I was about to be back on my way I texted her to check what she was up to... in that exact moment I got a text off her asking the same thing.. some commenting on the weird coincidence that we both wrote at the same time ensued... it was quite a moment indeed. We then met up at the fun fair and chatted a bit, then looking around in sadness at the sight of 12-years-old kids dressed and behaving like they were 20 we decided to move elsewhere. We shared again some quality moments while waiting for the place to get populated (i.e. doing crosswords and sudokus together) and then... then her fucking ex again.
This is just pure evil, not only against her, but against me as well, because it means I can never have a fully positive day with her. When she's like that it scares me, and it hurts me... because she's still so taken by her ex even though the evil evil thing has treated her like shit... it's so not right, so so not right, and I wish I could do something, but obviously I can't... she's so defenseless against this.
I get so very bad vibrations from this, hmmm.
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| Neverending story... |
[26 Apr 2008|01:01pm] |
The past month or so has been fairly up and down, but mostly down, GIL-wise. She hasn't minded me nearly as much as I'd have liked to, and this time I didn't do anything to deserve it. That was the drift until yesterday (but then..).
So indeed, yesterday she took me for a ride on her new motorbike. I didn't even ask for it, she just said to bring a helmet and that's it. When we met up she was nice and willing to talk to me, and during the ride and afterwards as well.
Mind you that while we were on the motorbike she said to put my arms around her instead of the knobs behind the seat, which in other words means I was as close to her as I haven't been since, well, a long long time (last time I was this close to her I think was back when we went skiing). Plus, she tried to discuss the muddy affair surrounding our friends (re: cheating), which was quite remarkable of her... and good, because I was tired of being the only one to bear such cross.
All was well, all was better than I'd have expected, but then... then we moved to a place where she accidentally bumped into her ex (the one of 1 and a half year ago.. not those in-between), and that threw her into an impressive downward moodshift spiral. It really upset her, and probably opened a wound that had never really healed. It hurt me to see her like that, and I was sad for her because it had been a positive night thus far. I wish I could have said or done something, but I never feel entitled to do so, at least not with her.
I'm pretty sure it has affected her, but I hope this hasn't put her back into blue-land.
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| Let's write something |
[25 Mar 2008|03:40am] |
For it's long due.
First off, I went to see Alicia Keys in concert. Nice show.
Should have been one of those "adventures" but as usual instead of being 100% awesome it was only 50-60% so. I said, as usual. I should stop putting my hopes into scheduled things, for they never work out as intended. Mind you though, it wasn't bad, just not as good as it should and could have been (GIL-wise).
Then, a rant which nobody will get but who cares, I just need to write it down so it's off my chest.
R. I can't quite put my finger on you... you don't seem a bad person, but I don't think I like you that much. You are too loud and too expansive and it kinda bothers me. Like, way too loud, and way too expansive.
B. you're... slimy (ok, I don't know if it can be used for a person, but you get the drift) with people in a sorta disturbing way. There's no way I can get what's on your mind or where you want to get at, and again, I don't like it. You might not be a bad person either, though here I'm not so sure, but it always looks like behind every action or word of yours there's a by-end. Plus, I hate the double face you're putting up, re: what you're doing with/to my friends.
L. you should just die, you sneaky pig of a bitch. Just grow. And go away.
S. you're another one who should mind their own freakin' business. Stop screwing others' lives up, you should freaking know better. Sometimes I wonder why people don't have anything better to do. Go back from where you come from, i.e. nowhere. Where or why the hell did you start hanging out with us anyway?
There, better.
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| Dilemma |
[24 Feb 2008|11:12pm] |
[Nothing to do with the GIL for once]
Hmm, so if a friend of yours happened to cheat on their gf, who also happens to be a friend of yours, and told you all about it, and begged you not to tell it to anyone and to lie, or at best pretend not to know, if ever the gf were to ask you specific things, what would you do?
I hate delivering secrets, and I hate lying - so either way I'd be betraying someone.
When you thought life couldn't suck more, suddenly it does.
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