...a piece of broken glass... (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} digital_frrreak) wrote,@ 2008-04-27 02:27:00 |
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And more... (but then!)
Dammit if one day could go right from beginning to end...
Today I had another awesome (now, that's an understatement) GIL-day. About 13:15. She fires up a convo with me on MSN (had been ages since she did that in a propositive, not I-need-a-favour way) and asks what I'm up to today. I said I had gotten up not long before and still hadn't planned anything, what about her... bike ride? (This was half way between a question and a proposal). She said she wanted to go shopping... and from there, and after some sweeeeeet teasing we eventually decided to meet half an hour later at some place where I would have left my car and been picked up by her. So motorbike + shopping = awesome. We spent the afternoon shopping, talking, laughing, eating giant ice cream cups and riding around on her motorbike together, just me and her. At about 17 or something we parted ways only to meet some time later in the evening to go to the fun fair. In the mean time I went to see an equestrianism event at my old stable, and then, when I was about to be back on my way I texted her to check what she was up to... in that exact moment I got a text off her asking the same thing.. some commenting on the weird coincidence that we both wrote at the same time ensued... it was quite a moment indeed. We then met up at the fun fair and chatted a bit, then looking around in sadness at the sight of 12-years-old kids dressed and behaving like they were 20 we decided to move elsewhere. We shared again some quality moments while waiting for the place to get populated (i.e. doing crosswords and sudokus together) and then... then her fucking ex again.
This is just pure evil, not only against her, but against me as well, because it means I can never have a fully positive day with her. When she's like that it scares me, and it hurts me... because she's still so taken by her ex even though the evil evil thing has treated her like shit... it's so not right, so so not right, and I wish I could do something, but obviously I can't... she's so defenseless against this.
I get so very bad vibrations from this, hmmm.
Dammit if one day could go right from beginning to end...
Today I had another awesome (now, that's an understatement) GIL-day. About 13:15. She fires up a convo with me on MSN (had been ages since she did that in a propositive, not I-need-a-favour way) and asks what I'm up to today. I said I had gotten up not long before and still hadn't planned anything, what about her... bike ride? (This was half way between a question and a proposal). She said she wanted to go shopping... and from there, and after some sweeeeeet teasing we eventually decided to meet half an hour later at some place where I would have left my car and been picked up by her. So motorbike + shopping = awesome. We spent the afternoon shopping, talking, laughing, eating giant ice cream cups and riding around on her motorbike together, just me and her. At about 17 or something we parted ways only to meet some time later in the evening to go to the fun fair. In the mean time I went to see an equestrianism event at my old stable, and then, when I was about to be back on my way I texted her to check what she was up to... in that exact moment I got a text off her asking the same thing.. some commenting on the weird coincidence that we both wrote at the same time ensued... it was quite a moment indeed. We then met up at the fun fair and chatted a bit, then looking around in sadness at the sight of 12-years-old kids dressed and behaving like they were 20 we decided to move elsewhere. We shared again some quality moments while waiting for the place to get populated (i.e. doing crosswords and sudokus together) and then... then her fucking ex again.
This is just pure evil, not only against her, but against me as well, because it means I can never have a fully positive day with her. When she's like that it scares me, and it hurts me... because she's still so taken by her ex even though the evil evil thing has treated her like shit... it's so not right, so so not right, and I wish I could do something, but obviously I can't... she's so defenseless against this.
I get so very bad vibrations from this, hmmm.
